#wounds without scars

[highfunctioningflailgirl]

I LOVE your headcanon, @roennq !! And it goes perfectly with my own, where Castiel has been assigned as Dean’s guardian angel long before they meet in “Lazarus rising”.

Option B: Chuck’s plot armor lets them heal really fast and without a trace. (Boring, but convenient)

Or, option C: John Winchester’s journal includes the secret recipe for Maman d’Artagnan’s magical ointment-that-heals-all, and the boys use it for their wounds. What worked for the Musketeers, works for the Winchesters, I guess?

[unnerving-presence]

TOLD YOU THEY GAVE HIM A HUGE COCK ON PURPOSE

also he’s probably partially or fully blind in his left eye im sobbing rn

[waitineedaname]

when you think about it, the homunculi really over-rely on their special abilities in fights. greed's the worst example of this since he fights like a guy who has never had to worry about getting seriously injured because of the shield + regeneration, which means he gets his ass kicked once those things are bypassed. envy also regularly gets their ass kicked, even when they turn into a fuckoff huge monster, because despite their shapeshifting powers giving them a leg up, they're not all that good of a fighter. even pride, the absolute scariest homunculus, is basically useless when his shadows aren't available. the only homunculus that's an actual competent fighter even when not using their special abilities is wrath, who coincidentally is the only one who actually had formal martial training

[loud-whistling-yes]

I saw you going insane in the tags and figure I'd give you this idea to work off from:

In double life, having had her loyalty scorned by Scott, she doesn't actually try to win it back at any point. She just tries her hardest to take everything from him (she uses his slip to take ownership of his house but beyond quoting that exact line always refers to it exclusively as *her house* not their house as well as making many attempts to get Cleo to stay with her, even when rabid she never attacked Cleo first,) attempted to make him suffer as much as possible (mostly through the powdered snow but also often in other ways,) and when they had seemingly made up she told him to his face that she planned to betray him and join the other side, so she is unflinching loyal but also incredibly vengeful if that loyalty is tossed away and discarded.

LITERALLY. SHE DRIVES ME SO FUCKING CRAZY I CANT WITH THIS. its almost like she embodies the parts of scott and cleo people associate them with and went absolutely batshit hogwild with it. scott's unwavering loyalty + cleo's bloodthirsty vengeance + pearl's own tendency to fixate ALL that shit towards one and a half of a person and be fucking unhinged while doing it = whatever the fuck dl!pearl was on. she forgives scott at the very last minute when she thinks scott gave up the victory for her BUT by the time limlife comes around you can tell shes not completely over it. like i fucking cant with these two. i CANNOT. the way the two of them work how when together they're unstoppable and loyal to the bitter end but simply by the nature of how they are once betrayed their relationship can NEVER go back to the way it once was. they're two sides of the same coin. pearl is devoted the way scott is loyal and scott is petty the way pearl is vengeful.

like seriously just typing this out i just realised??? the traits many people associate with scott???? how petty he is and how loyal he is???? pearl has it too. the thing with her is that with her she takes it to the extreme and always to one person only. just take a look at her and impulse in limlife. impulse kills her once(1) and she DOES NOT let go of that grudge for the rest of the entire fucking series. im not joking rewatch the whole fucking thing again and count the number of times she declares wanting to kill impulse after the boogie kill. scott might do it more frequently but when pearl hates someone shes never letting that shit go

and the fact that she dies this season, underwater, stabbed by scott, trashing around and yelling "this isnt fair"? i wonder if that's another grudge she'll be keeping for a lifetime

[e1dritchqueer]

I kinda hate how I have to choose between numbing my desire to be vulnerable and honest vs letting that desire and vulnerability bloom

[jjsanguine]

Rei: I quit

Shigeki: no. It is your destiny, your purpose—

Rei: I still quit *shoots him*

[castielafflicted]

honestly its so cruel and unusual that edge play is dangerous like thats just not fair

[stinastar]

The Cinnamon Peeler

- Michael Ondaatje

If I were a cinnamon peeler I would ride your bed And leave the yellow bark dust On your pillow.

Your breasts and shoulders would reek You could never walk through markets without the profession of my fingers floating over you. The blind would stumble certain of whom they approached though you might bathe under rain gutters, monsoon.

Here on the upper thigh at this smooth pasture neighbour to you hair or the crease that cuts your back. This ankle. You will be known among strangers as the cinnamon peeler's wife.

I could hardly glance at you before marriage never touch you --your keen nosed mother, your rough brothers. I buried my hands in saffron, disguised them over smoking tar, helped the honey gatherers...

When we swam once I touched you in the water and our bodies remained free, you could hold me and be blind of smell. you climbed the bank and said

this is how you touch other women the grass cutter's wife, the lime burner's daughter. And you searched your arms for the missing perfume

and knew

what good is it to be the lime burner's daughter left with no trace as if not spoken to in the act of love as if wounded without the pleasure of a scar.

You touched your belly to my hands in the dry air and said I am the cinnamon Peeler's wife. Smell me.

[superconductivebean]

#312: >_> <_<

low-key amused at wright's awkward crush on sharp she didnt realise she had if not for imelda pestering her about it all the time bc of some vicious rumor, following #294

not me writing lines in tags again

[dbssh]

thinkibg about something david said abt genji yesterday and like im gonna throw up. oh genji.

[elitadream]

I love that you draw Mario with scars. I feel like both him and Luigi would have a lot considering the type of things they have to endure.

Thank you! I love that you've noticed this and I really appreciate the comment. ☺️

@aybeebz's interpretation of Mario was what first gave me this very interesting idea, and I loved it so much it literally became a permanent element of my design for him as well (if you look closely, you'll see that everytime his arms are uncovered, there are visible scars there as well :3).

Like you said, it only makes sense for both Mario and Luigi to have scars when we stop to consider all the perils they've had to go through and all the dangerous adversaries they've had to fight over time. 👀🙇‍♀️ Scars have a way of telling stories; of silently indicating what someone might have faced, and showing their strength of character for getting past it. There's a definite subtext there that can be used as development both for the character themselves and the way they interact with others, which is always a great thing to explore further. ❤️‍🩹

[who-is-muses]

[ picking at a starter for Antonio and my god. I REALLY need to finish that Powers and Inventory thang for the muses, especially the OCs/mega canon divergents. ]

[xstarlightxstarbrightx]

thoughts on how the Inazuma Archon quest went [2]

still yapping abt the Interlude b/c it's the best way for me to not procrastinate.

Shenhe: i'll take this rock back Lumi: ??? this thing weighs a bajillion tons??? Shenhe, picking up the rock: i can handle it Kaeya: oh shit, she can handle it Paimon: SHE'S TOTALLY AN ADEPTI, LOOK!!!!!

Cloud Retainer: i see u met Shenhe Paimon: yeah! what's her adeptus name, btw, it feels a lil rude to call her Shenhe. Cloud Retainer: ??? Shenhe's a human. Lumi: FUCKING CALLED IT. Paimon: aw, man... Cloud Retainer: explains Shenhe's past Lumi: so she's not a pilgrim, either... you just adopted her. Lumi: WAIT UR HER MASTER???? Kaeya: i don't think even i expected that.

anyway, Shenhe's officially the Trio's friends (and because both Lumi and Paimon were wrong, Kaeya obtained the winnings from the bet.)

looking back on this quest, it felt very much like "check out these characters that are in Liyue that you haven't met yet!!!" which i don't have a problem with, but even now looking at it i'm like "so many characters,,," (little did i know)

i really really like, though, that Beidou and Yun Jin just popped in and were like "lmao let's fuck up the competition and work together". iconic, tbh.

Also i mentioned that Kaeya's into the arts n stuff, so I like the idea that maybe he knows who Yun Jin is and is like??? pleased to meet her b/c of her Opera. like Zhongli introduced him to her Opera performances, and obviously they both enjoy that kinda stuff, so he's like a bit of a fan but is really good at hiding it / being chill abt it.

i'm dying on that hill, no one can change my mind.

side note, "the Divine Damsel of Devastation" ngl is kinda fire. I loved the entire mini story-line abt it and how it's not as glamorous as everyone says??? it's amazing. Shenhe's entire thing of "i wasn't being selfless, i was trying to survive". ough,,, good soup. delicious.

anyway, when it finally comes down to everyone getting the stuff and earning their questions for Ningguang, I feel like Kaeya probably uses his question to set up a link between her and the Knights. Something like "would you be willing to set up a meeting with the Acting Grandmaster hmm?" and Ningguang's like "i knew u'd ask that." Kaeya's such a good envoy, look at him go.

and then Beisht ruins the party :(

AND KNOCKS OUT LUMINE. WHICH IS RUDE.

but it's fine b/c she and Kaeya go to help Shenhe when she comes to, and they kick Beisht's ass. ALSO SHENHE JUST BEING LIKE "I wasn't trying to be the hero, I just wanted to protect you" IS SO CUTE AND PRECIOUS, Y'ALL SHE IS SO BABY.

i am so tempted to pull up the Opera cutscene after this too b/c i fucking LOVED that shit SO MUCH. it was so good, and Yun Jin really did her best to try and capture the tale as truthfully as possible and yifskjhFGsejkhgfkasjefhkejsrfhsjkFHJKFHSJKEFHJKSEFH

Kaeya and Lumine probably feel the same way i do abt the Opera, too, but they can't be as feral b/c bitches gotta make sure Shenhe doesn't murder a man.

ANYWAY,,, INTERLUDE CHAPTER IS DONE, I PROMISE TO DO ONE (1) INAZUMA TODAY, I SWEARRR

[bryantlf]

Not a single scar on my heart is from an enemy….

[cassiocantdrink]

i don't. a) it's a major nuisance - think of the trophic ulcers that never heal. b) i'm a biologist, and i like biology to do its job properly. heal the wounds, encapsulate foreign substances. stop the pain. "properly" is the wrong word here anyway - an adult human body cannot regenerate, so in attempt to save itself, it hastily packs the wound with cells that cannot do the job of the wounded cells - hence the scars, and that's why you need stitches - the fewer of those non-specialized cells, the better. if you want the body to keep the score (and i do but then again i maybe don't - i like it to work well, and scars are not conductive to that - a heart after an infarction will forever be weak), scars are enough. and scars, i like.

i like that it's possible for wounds to be haunted. like scars can ache, and severed limbs can produce phantom sensations, and their physical presence or lack thereof itself functions as a reminder of what happened (or what was done) to you. wounds can reopen, or become infected, or refuse to heal, driving themselves deeper into the body and making them harder to ignore. you can try to conceal a wound, cover it up and close it off, but a stubborn wound will bleed through again and again no matter how much distance you try to put between it and yourself. the body keeps the score.

[mxfitmatrix]

There's something bittersweet about going no contact with my mom.

There are little things I want to say or share. Questions I want to ask, stories and recipies I have to ask others to get from her covertly (though I don't have much time with this one as it seems that she is truly burning every bridge in our family). It's the grieving and having to treat her like she's gone, knowing that we love about 15 minutes apart still and at any time I might just... see her.

Tonight I have to grapple with the knowledge that my grandfather has my art surrounding him in his home. He's been redecorating lately and my brother's girlfriend just told me that he has a room that's now practically all decorated by me. I know how much he loves me, or I hope I do. It feels so good to have one member of my family who hasn't let me down once, not truly. Not without him being heartbroken and never repeating his mistake when he knew he hurt me.

To have a shining example of being a good family member, and know that I can't even talk about his daughter. I can't be the one to tell him why I have to miss his birthday lunch but I would love to get him breakfast and hear about his week, because if she's there he will find out and I will not be a part of that mess.

But there will be a room in his home that he loves and cherishes, that shows the joy I can express to someone who treats me with the same love and respect. And she will walk im there, and recognize the signature in the corner.